Before I begin I must run a disclaimer. This has nothing to do with porn so if you think this is, get lost. This is, well I guess you’d call it a “existential crisis” (I use that term loosely). I know there are many more serious problems going on in the world. Just turn on the TV, look on the internet, or watch You Tube and you can find truly serious problems. This is more of an artistic questioning. Not any less serious, just something I’ve been pondering.
I’m not boo-hooing about my situation it’s more about if anyone else in the art world, or for that matter, anywhere in the world thinks the same way I do. Recently I attempted to enter several gallery shows. I selected what I thought was some really excellent photographs (see in the gallery below) and waited for my answers. ALL were rejected, so I ask myself: Maybe I suck. Maybe I’m just kidding myself into thinking I was really good with a camera when I’m not. Does anyone out there feel this way? Do you feel that your going in circles and not getting a damn thing accomplished?
Maybe some of this is because my birthday is coming up. I’m getting closer and closer to 50 and I’m beginning to wonder what the point of all of this is. Why I’m I so concerned about what a few art judges thing of my work? I know many artist have gone through this.
And maybe I feel like I’m running out of time. Precious time. I sometimes feel like I’m wasting a lot of my time on things that really don’t matter. Like my regular job. I need to pay the bills and I want my artwork to pay for those bills, but as long as people won’t accept my work, I will never get the chance to sell my work.
Or maybe I’m just blowing this way out of proportion and I just need to go with the flow. Well, now that I’m done whining and ranting please take a look at my entries. Yeah, maybe they do suck, but their mine.